Is he sexy or is it the Nike Collection?

Dear Dickhead,

You seem to embrace this endearing term even though it is far from true. It is easy to get caught up in you and this is probably as scary as it can get into the reveal, I am not one of those grass is greener on the other side bitches. I accept that I am destined for as far as I came so I don't try to cross the boundaries. You did transfer your writing to me love this is why I feel bad; you see you have noticed something you have lost the passion for your song and finding your voice. Babe I know the chances of making it in the music industry are slim to none, but when you have a needle in the haystack, you have something in your back pocket.

I have the gift to make kings and queens and empires through my optimism and my rose colored glasses, you know the hardest part of dealing with life on life's terms and like when I met you and I had my mask and all that shit I was not going to disclose to you that I was a decoy and I honestly did not expect to blurt it out after all the time of holding it in as soon as I saw you I was so excited and I was like its my homie, and you were such an asshole like I loved it and opposite of what I expected like literally just like you truly don't know how much I know about you Mike it is quite a bit, I do a diligent amount of research when it comes to my legacies, especially if after 5 years and telling everyone in my whole world to kick rocks you continue to hold my heart in the palm of your hands and you tread so lightly with it and yet you are so blind and so am I, like you got common sense babe me not so much, I am one of those people that would be staring off into the clouds and walk off a fucking cliff and all you hear is well Gang Gang on the way down.

If I wanted to make sense to the world I could but I kind of don't want to why no one truly sees me anyhow and even if they do I scare the hell out of them so bad that I can't even manage to get an opportunity for coffee or a mere opportunity where someone is listening without staring at my tits and ass because I am stuck wearing form fitting clothes and I can't punch them in the mouth or even randomly sneeze and head butt folks, you don't understand some shit that I was dealing with when I met Mike, prior to that you were Gambo which in my mind was my fucking Eminem like you were seriously the best thing since sliced bread... God broke bread but you took that shit and was like and as the feast begins I give you slices so we can all have equal portions ( if that is not a drop your pants type of line right there I have no hope and just need to throw in the towel its going to be like my ear piercing isn't it there Godzilla?

You woke up a side of me that had been dormant when I got accused of plagiarism in 7th grade I put my heart into a poem when I was suffering the most it was a cry for help disclosing a serious amount of abuse in a treatment center setting except it was a state funded group home for way ward girls, you see when the going got tough in my world everyone left and I became just a case on someone elses load, that is how I always viewed myself that if someone is not getting paid then they really have no genuine interest, this led to my view of my body being my bag. Except I was so broken that I just wanted to be touched without fearing it and instead my identity further hid itself and then the broken took hold. I thought that I had it all figured out until the day that our circle crossed and you opened my eyes to curiosity about who Mikey was and then I started seeing a funny witty fun loving person that had some shit going on but wasn't bad looking... When you have one alter that kind of thinks that she is supposed to be like a nun and not even let anyone have anyone near her and even has her own vow of silence, I want to say fuck you because I already hear you saying WHY CAN'T I MEET THE QUIET ONE. Why can't I meet the gambler thats willing to lay down some money on the odds *Gives you the finger and a neck wrap but it is a slight one my ass would get whiplash* Dude I don't know there is a lot of guilt and shit that comes with me and there is a conspiracy theory story that I would never be comfortable writing down thats why I was always like holy shit you just make me want to stop running away and push on...........